For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
M A T T H E W 6 : 1 4
I love my new job. There are many great things about it, but one of my favorite parts is the way that they cultivate and encourage faith. A few weeks ago, I got to attend my first “Faith Forum” and even though I’m not sure that the topic of forgiveness is applicable right now, I still felt like a learned quite a bit.
Robin, the forum speaker, spoke about forgiveness and how it played out in her life. She went through steps it takes in forgiving someone, or at least the steps she took – awareness, owning your end of things, go/receive in love, check expectations at the door, let it go, cultivate the field of forgiveness, and get help.
As she spoke, I listened for that tid-bit that I needed to hear. It was loud, bold and almost as if God wrote it on my journal in bright red ink. And I had hardly ever considered it before.
Robin said something along the lines of how she realized that she wasn’t growing in her faith and that’s how she knew something was wrong, something was holding her back from being fully all in, all the time.
And lately, I have the same defeated feeling of being stationary, except it wasn’t until that moment that I realized what it was.
I haven’t quite figured out if this is just part of how the journey works or if this is something I just need to power through extra hard, but I am praying that God will show me the things in my life that are preventing the best possible relationship with him and that He make me excited for quiet time again.